02.04.05
our dog died at 10pm on Saturday night. we had him for 12 years and there is a big hole in the house. every time i open a door, i expect the soft thud of his sleeping body jammed up against the door. he was very big and over compensatory for his size - gentle as a moth and stubbourn as a bull, RIP boss - you never minded us really.

19.03.05
watching the summer tinkle away to shorter days - think it would be nice to go somewhere warm for winter - winter is so long, god i would be useless somewhere that was really cold. my little boy luka is asleep having played hard today - so a bit of writing and some dishes or something. my head is hurting from thinking about things too hard, i wish i were lighter, i wish things brushed off a little easier.....i have been thinking about trying to learn about meditation to stop the tick tocking, i know people who practise breathing, maybe i am practising all the wrong things? damn, i should have followed my career adviser when he matched me up to a life in book editing?? go figure, if i could spell, that would have been good. time for some action... turning the computer off, now.

18.11.05
mmm, smell of summer and a soccer win, i must say, not really a football fan, but think i'm a convert, i couldn't keep my bum on the seat the other night, and damn that deeply rooted patriotism - i can't help but ooze pride, well done socceroos, i will definitely be watching some more of that football stuff. Bondi is so beautiful in the summer, when everyone is stripped down to little bits of lycra, the beach, as has been said, is a wonderful equaliser, warts and all experience. i am one of those people that sits on the beach with a turtle neck and watches the activity and occasionally dangle my toes, not a tanning, swimming, sand playing kinda person, the beach for me is a bit of a vaudeville type experience, entertaining, colourful, exciting and full of great drama. family is coming for chrissy, we will have a full house to see in the new year, best wishes to all, christmas smishmash, but ya gotta admit it is fun so have a very merry one - lara